No TV for 2 weeks

This is what it was like for us for 10 years. There is such peace in the house. Such quiet. No wasted time, really. I can write, if I get enough sleep. I've been very tired and sleep escapes me. Tonight, I should sleep just fine.

I'm very aware of His Presence today

I want to write 'Papa is very close today' and then I realize He's always close. So I changed the title. I've had vivid moments of pure peace today. Before I nearly choked to death on two horse pills taken at the same time, and afterward. During the episode I was scared and nearly crying. I cried to Papa for help, believing Him for it, but I was afraid anyway. I massaged my throat and my gag reflex took over. I helped it along a little and coughed up the pills. My throat is swollen now. That's good. I need to listen more :)

A word: HAZZUZ

Upon waking this morning, this word "HAZZUZ" came clearly in my mind in bold type. I've looked it up, but there is no such word on google and yahoo. It looks like 'Jesus', doesn't it? The Spanish pronunciation for Jesus is 'ha-ZOOS".

Immediately, I wanted to look at the letters. 'Z', a jagged letter for wind or lightning. and Holy Spirit, who is like wind, which could also be 'Z'. There are three Z's. One for each of The Three Beautiful Ones?

'H' is a cross. Jesus :)

'A' is alpha. First. That's Papa God.

'U' is 'unity'. This is my Papa, Jesus and Holy Spirit.

I almost missed Him, Them, imprinted on my brain.

The song I played in orchestra in high school, "Jesu, Joy of Man's Desire" comes to mind.

Yesterday, my heart was broken. But Jesus is my joy.

Papa's Definitions on Common Words

I'm learning to see things with spiritual eyes. Words we commonly use in time and space on Earth have eternal meaning too. Sometimes (or all the time) they clarify Papa's ways for us.

Timing - Papa's timing versus our timing. All things in good time. His timing is perfect, etc. It's best to receive a promise, take it to heart, eat it and not think about the WHEN of its fulfillment. I'm content that I received the promise. The blessing is the promise itself.

Time - Papa goes to and fro, inside and outside of time. We only know a life inside of time. But sometimes, I'm taken up. I return what seems like a moment later, but several hours have passed. That's me when spending time with Papa, Jesus and Sarayu.

Answers - They are both yes and no, and always answered by Papa. What I ask for might not be what I need. Papa's answers are perfect and complete for me.

Intimate

How closely are you following Me? The foundation is laid. The musicians sing you into My presence, riding the waves of My mercy, I've shown you how to enter properly. Let go. There is nothing to fear. Just come.

Vessel

Why we're here. Vessels to connect people to Papa, Jesus and Sarayu. Clean vessels do it best. We sow into them so they can be vessels. More vessels to more people, Papa.

In everything I do, I must remember I am a vessel. It is my plumb line Earth to Heaven and Heaven to Earth. Like an elevator vessel attached at the outside of the tallest skyscraper shooting up and down, the vessel works best when its ears are open wide to what the Master would have me do today. Mmmm.... The highest calling ever. The worthy vessel.

You Can't Love and Judge at the Same Time

So you must choose quite often in a single day that you are either going to love or judge. If you don't choose to love in advance, you will judge. Love with your spirit that is connected to Heaven. Don't judge with your mind that is stuck in the flesh.

Did you know that your mind is constantly at war with your spirit? The redeemed part of you lives in glory on Earth. Your spirit was awakened at your salvation. It lay dormant until that day. Papa breathed life into it and Papa entered in. But your flesh that used to rule you wants to be the boss. It sneaks out and usurps the right you want to do. It's nasty and selfish. It judges and curses people. Yuck. See it coming? Then center down. Close your eyes and say, "Papa, Jesus, Sarayu." Just keep saying it. Think about the Three Beautiful Ones every second you get. They come and you are in so much love with Them that you can't imagine ever wanting to judge. How nasty that is!
Guard your mind. Meditate on the Word. It is full of life. I feel like I'm getting a blood transfusion when I read it. The more I let it in, the more I'm transformed. Speak in tongues too. These are tools for life.